Our 2nd Anniversary

Haa.. Entry sebelum ni ada mention yang kita orang nak tidur kat Somerset Ampang kan...

Memang best sangat!!!!!!!!!!!

Berbaloi la untuk time for two... Mesti la nak ade private moment untuk kitaorang berdua kan...

Layan gamba ok!

Susunan gambar agak terabur... Tapi seronok sangat... Thank you so much hubby, for everything... for two wonderful years with you :)

Somerset Ampang

Heee anniversary is coming... Yeay... 2 beautiful years with my lovely hubby... Oh i love him so much...

Kitaorang dah plan for short gateway ke Somerset Jalan Ampang. Actual view tak tau macam mana sebab tak sampai sana lagi.. Kalau tengok image kat website dia nampak sangat mendamaikan...

http://www.somerset.com/malaysia/kuala_lumpur/somerset_ampang/photo_gallery.html

Meh layan gamba.. (diceduk sepenuhnya dari website)

Ha.. nanti balik dari bercuti boleh share gamba k!!

Semalam berpusing-pusing kat midvalley carikan dia hadiah... Nak belikan spec, dia tak mau... Last2 saya beli sendiri jer... Jenuh kalau nak tunggu dia... Apa dia.. SURPRISE... bukan la cecanggih pun dikala banyak budget nak di spend untuk rumah ni... Tunggu update masa anniversary nanti...

Chow!!

Abaya

Ha, sebenarnya mata sangat mengantuk kat opis ni despite of job load yang super melambak.. Mak ai.. itulah masalah finance bila bulan 12... nak buat bodoh pun tak boleh. Nasib baik ler bos saya sekarang ni suka dengan aktiviti luar dan takde bising2 sangat bila staf nak cuti...

Kenapa saya letak entry tajuk abaya. Saya suka pakai sebab senang, sarung dah siap, tapi make sure pakai baju lain dekat dalam sebab baju dia jenis terbelah kang nampak semua apa yang tak patut lak.. hahaha

Dipendekkan cerita ni komen staf laki kat opis saya:

hahaha.. lawo sangat ker.. takdela maybe sebab nampak lain dari biasa, selalu pakai seluar jer kan.. bila pakai abaya, ramailah yang menegur...

Ha comelkan... macam baru 21 gitew... kekeke...

Dah lebih sebulan baru ler air asia nak email mintak details tentang saya sebab diorang nak prepare flight voucher. Lepas tu nak mintak travelling period bila... Diorang bagitau yang flight voucher tu diorang akan prepare untuk 3 bulan...

So fikir punya fikir, bulan 1 nak start pindah rumah....Mesti busy dengan hal-hal rumah... Nak touch up sikit, beli perabut sikit... Nak tempah langsir bagai...mak oi macam2 hal... Biarlah rumah tu macam syurga untuk kitaorang berdua.. Kitaorang memang suka kalau duk hotel... sebab ape, sebab hotel tu cantik.. bilik air best... hahaha.. paham2 jerla kan.. husband and wife... bila berendam sama2 kan syok... Tapi mana larat nak tidur hotel selalu kan... so biarlah rumah tu private untuk kami berdua.. Almost 2 tahun kahwin...(next Selasa 2nd anniversary) duk rumah mertua... Ha.. privacy tu ade.. tapi takleh lebih2.. jarang sekali dapat mandi sesama... (if you feel offense, dont read it, its normal for married couple). Apatah lagi nak buat ala-ala SPA di rumah... oh i am excited to move in into our own house... Sape tak suka pindah rumah sendiri kan.. Kalau yang tak suka tu mental kot :P

1st step lepas dapat kunci, nak pasang wallpaper, touch up apa yang patut.. Ganti tempat langsir yang ala-ala nak roboh tu...(hee sangat tak suka)...

Nanti korang tengokla hasilnya macam mana yer... (gambar diatas, itulah rumah yang kitaorang beli)... Luckily husband suka decor-decor ni same ngan saya... Kalau bab men-decor ni, kitaorang tahan duk kedai ber jam-jam tengok barang... sebab minat...

Saya dah siap survey harga wallpaper... sebenarnya kitaorang dah pernah pergi pun kedai ni Lamex wallpaper kat Sunway Giza,  ni website dia http://www.lamexwall.com/ memang menarik sangat... Dah lama mengidam nak pasang... Especially kat master bedroom ngan hall.. cumanya kalau pasang full kat hall mahal la pulak.. So akan buat feature wall jer...



Ha lawa kan... hee suka sangat....

Husband siap cakap, nak renovate bilik air, nak renovate lantai... ada rezeki lebih... Insyaallah boleh... Tinggi kos kalau lantai kira per square feet. Kalau kat floor depot- 1 sq ft dalam RM4,9,12,15 semua ada. Mahal tu..Siapkan duit jer...

Tang bilik air tu, saya pun suka bilik air lawa ni...

Macam gambo ni...tenang jer rasanya duk dalam bilik air... Pastu bil melambung sebab asyik berendam dalam bath tub...haha

Lepas settle down rumah ni nanti, bolehla ber TTC dengan tenang...

Dah plan for short gateway pun next week masa anniversary... Biarlah kitaorang berdua jer time tu, mana best kat rumah kan... Ok.. chow....

Chemical Pregnancy

What is Chemical Pregnancy? (diceduk dari Google)

A chemical pregnancy is like a cruel joke. You take an early pregnancy test around the time your period is due that shows a faint positive. Naturally, you get excited and start spreading the joyful news that you're expecting. Then, a few days later you get your period and the doctor says, "It was just a chemical pregnancy."


Meanwhile, you're left confused and possibly devastated. The term chemical pregnancy sounds like a false positive pregnancy test, as if you were not really pregnant at all. But the truth is that a chemical pregnancy was indeed a conception and is actually a very early miscarriage.

What Chemical Pregnancy Means:

The term chemical pregnancy means that the miscarriage happened at a point that a missed period and biochemical tests, such as an hCG blood test or a home pregnancy test (checking hCG in urine), were the only evidence that you were pregnant. The miscarriage happened before an ultrasound could have shown a gestational sac.

When the pregnancy develops to the point that ultrasound could confirm the existence of the pregnancy, the term becomes clinical pregnancy. Thus, a chemical pregnancy would be a miscarriage before the fifth week of gestation -- or within about week after your missed menstrual period.

Symptoms:

The primary symptom of chemical pregnancy would be if you begin to have vaginal bleeding shortly after having a positive pregnancy test. Blood tests reveal low hCG levels that are decreasing rather than increasing.

Causes:

Doctors believe that chemical pregnancies happen for the same reasons as most other miscarriages –- probably because of chromosomal abnormalities in the developing baby. It is hard to know for sure what causes these early miscarriages, however, because it is nearly impossible to retrieve any samples for chromosomal testing.

Frequency:

No one really knows how common chemical pregnancies are, but some researchers have theorized that as many as 70% of conceptions end in miscarriage. Women who are not actively trying to conceive and not closely watching their menstrual cycles may have chemical pregnancies and never know it; in other cases, chemical pregnancy could be a reason (but not the only possible reason) why a menstrual period arrives a few days late.

Physical Recovery:

Chemical pregnancies happen early enough that they have little effect on women’s bodies, and in many cases, they can be mistaken for a normal period that is a few days late (or even on time). One 2007 study found that the bleeding after a chemical pregnancy is sometimes even lighter than a woman’s usual menstrual period. The bleeding from a chemical pregnancy might be accompanied by more cramps than usual also, but recovery should be fairly swift.

Trying Again:

With a very early miscarriage, many doctors will say that it’s OK to go ahead and try again right away. Other doctors recommend waiting to try to get pregnant again as a standard answer after all miscarriages, no matter how early. Talk to your doctor about what is right for your specific situation.

Grieving a Chemical Pregnancy:

In many cases, chemical pregnancy might put you in a weird situation from a grieving perspective. Some women don’t feel very sad over chemical pregnancies, whereas others are completely devastated emotionally. People in your life might not recognize the validity of your loss, insisting that you are wrong to grieve because it happened too early for you to get attached to the pregnancy or that “it wasn’t a real baby.”

Regardless of what anyone says, a miscarriage is a miscarriage. You do not have to justify your grief or compare it to anyone else’s grief for it to be valid. A chemical pregnancy was still a pregnancy, and for many women, it’s still a loss of a baby and grief that will always they will carry for their entire lives.

It’s also OK to not be too sad about a very early miscarriage and to decide you just want to try again. Everyone reacts differently to the situation, and there is no single, right emotional response to chemical pregnancy.

If you do tend to grieve chemical pregnancies deeply, and you are actively trying to conceive, think about perhaps waiting to test each cycle until your period is actually late. This way, you do not necessarily have to know about very early miscarriages. Many doctors recommend against early pregnancy testing for this reason.

Temperature sy dah start drop, in fact semalam dah ade light brown spotting. Kelmarin petang try buat HPT pun negative..

Dah tanda-tanda AF kan...So saya assume, chemical pregnancy... Ok saya sakit kepala ni.. Chow...

Tak sedap hati mode

Lately ni, asyik rasa tak sedap hati, tak sedap badan... Mana taknya lebih seminggu saya duk sakit belakang, sakit pinggang, gassy, asyik nak wee wee (pee)dan sore breast... huuu ntahlah... Kelmarin saya tido ngigau sangat teruk, kesian husband... Saya cakap kat dia yang saya mimpi yang saya miscarriage... Betul, tak tipu...
Masa mimpi tu saya mimpi saya jatuh dan lepas tu darah keluar menjijis-jijis... Hua saya menangis semahunya sampaikan bangun tidur tu saya rasa ada airmata kat muka saya...

Husband cakap kat saya, jangan fikir sangat, itu mimpi jer... Ntahlah... Jauh disudut hati... Saya makin tak confident dengan diri sendiri... Nak buat HPT pun takut...

Nak lupakan kesedihan tu, saje ajak hubby gi jalan-jalan dan kitaorang pegi main ice skating... Husband dah pandai, dia laju jer... Saya duk pegang tepi ice rink tu sambil jalan pelan-pelan.. Ade jugakla lepas tangan sekali sekala...

Meh enjoy gamba k

Ha, syok tau. Akibatnya sakit kaki, baik tapak kaki, betis, peha sampaila punggung. Aduhai....
Sebab sy monitor cervical mucus, so far pagi, petang masih creamy lagi. Cuma masa 11pm, ada light brown spotting... Taktaulah sebab apa.... makin xsedap hati... Tapi kalau inilah ketentuan Allah, aku redha.

Ni graf kat FF, 1Dec 2012, CD30, DPO19.... Ya Allah... Bantulah hambamu ini....

HPT v/s Fertility friend

23 November 2012
Hmm pagi-pagi tadi saya POAS (pee on a stick) before mandi nak pegi kerja... lepas tu biarkan sekejap.
Lepas-lepas mandi tu kalau mata saya xsalah lah, ada faint line... Actually very-very faint line. Memula pandang macam takde, lepas tu tengok kat lampu putih.. Eh adalah... Tak sempat nak ambik gamba sebab nak pergi kerja... Alhamdulillah kalau ini benar-benar rezeki dari Allah.

Google punya google, saya rasa gambar ni paling similar dengan HPT saya pagi tadi...

Saya pernah belek-belek HPT sebelum-sebelum yang memang takde nak sangkut line langsung pada HPT tu...Kali ini, insyaallah mata saya still ok lagi, memang ada cuma very faint one..

Tapi tak nak too excited, tengok next HPT macam mana. Harap dapat double line yang getting darker and darker from time to time. Actually before this saya tak pernah dapat second line. Even faint line pun takde. Memang big fat negative dengan sesungguhnya. Kali ni rasa ada perbezaan nya...

"Ya Allah, makbulkan doa hambamu ini... Jadikan aku sebagai perempuan yang sihat dan subur dan mampu mengandung dan melahirkan anak dengan baik dan kurniakanlah kami zuriat yang baik dan sempurna".

Temperature as of today Alhamdulillah. Masih di tahap yang tinggi 36.65C. Harini CD22 dengan DPO11- Harap FertilityFriend ni accurate lah yer... :)
Debaran makin terasa... Harap sangat double line berterusan, Insyaallah...

28 November 2012

Ni picture masa 23.11.2012 DPO11 blur sesangat dalam gamba tapi in real life nampak sebenarnya

Ni picture masa 25.11.2012 lebih kurang sama dengan yang atas tu

"Kalau korang tanya, apakah perasaan saya, saya sebenarnya gembira, ialah, seumur hidup saya buat HPT... Faint positive tak pernah dapat even sekali pun...Seriously".

Saya tak confident pun sebenrnya... Sebab entahlah... Kalau double line tapi terang benderang maybe kot...

Sejujurnya saya tak nak terlalu mengharap. mengharap sedikit yer... Tapi bukan terlalu... sebabnya kalau saya terlalu mengharap tapi tak jadi kenyataan, saya lah yang paling kecewa....

Based on picture-picture dalam Fertility Friend (FF), kebanyakkan nya semua under category pregnancy. So saya pun tandalah + dalam FF mobile saya.

Selagi takde confirmation dari Dr tentang perkara ni like image ultrasound nampak SAC ker, atau urine saya terang benderang merah macam Diana Danielle tu, saya tak berani nak kata saya betul-betul pregnant. Off course saya memang  tak putus-putus berdoa agar itu adalah tanda embrio saya sihat dan selamat, tapi Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik buat saya dan suami.

Period saya due harini atau esok, CD27 @ CD28. Kalau 2 weeks after this tak period dan memang dapat both double line in red colour, saya nak jumpa gynea...

Macam previous entry saya tentang faint line kan... Minah saleh ni buat study yang dia sendiri dapat blur, tetapi 22hari lepas dia dapat faint line tu, dia dapat double red line positive so fast, around 10seconds jer.

Bagus betul. Siap buat research. First saya dapat faint positive masa 23hb November 2012, harini baru hari ke 5, lepas 1st faint positive and 22 hari lepas tu adalah 15 December 2012. So just wait and see jer lah.

Kalau before 15 December tu AF muncul, paham-paham jer lah yer. Sekian.



Faint Positive HPT

Saya found out that this article was really good for woman who get faint positive at their HPT.
Thank you for preparing such a good article. 
Boleh refer pada item bawah sekali untuk tunjukkan berapa lama line tu akan getting darker, if you are really pregnant. So jangan panic ok kalau jumpa faint line.
Kalau betul-betul pregnant, line tu akan nampak 100% bright dia lepas 22 hari... Peace :)




I took a lot... these are just the ones I kept. I ditched *all* the cheap internet tests which were awful. Either huge evaporation lines showing up hours after the "valid test time" or no positive when other tests were picking it up just fine.

Here are most of the tests, arranged in order from top to bottom by date. They're next to each other if I took more than one on a specific date. The rectangular tests with green or blue half-dots are ovulation tests and pregnancy tests, respectively. Yes, ovulation tests will pick up low concentrations of pregnancy hormone earlier than an HPT, but not early enough to be useful or clearly enough to be trustworthy. But interesting, nonetheless! There is one "late" test (taken toward the end) which is negative. This was our "control" test, which I was able to do with the help of a certain brave person who donated for the cause while saying, "Ew, mom. Can I see the test?" She got a neg during normal reading time and evaporation lines "around" the place a positive would show up, but not on the test line itself.

The most interesting discovery is that there are two different "box pictures" for the Dollar Tree New Choice brand tests, and two different tests, but the picture on the box does not necessarily match the actual test inside.  The actual test above came out of the box with the picture of a test with red printing on it. Another test just like it came out of a box like the one next to it. But I got tests out of those boxes on other occasions that looked like the picture on the box. Confused? Me too. But I like the "mismatched" box/test sets best--those tests have the strongest line, even when used on identical urine samples, even though they actually need less urine. Go figure!

4/27/04 Dollar Tree New Choice, negative

I think this was the day I implanted. This test had the courtesy to develop an evaporation line on the OTHER side of the control line, which was nice, as it didn't make me turn my brain inside out trying to figure out if it was "really" a line or not.

4/28/04 FRER, negative

This is a First Response test. You may or may not be able to see a faint line. This line showed up 3 hours after I took the test, 13 days after ovulation, 1 day before my "missed" period, which, according to FR's box, should have gotten a positive. But FR does not take into account late implanters... I implanted on day 12, we think, according to my chart. Note the *huge* dip on day 12. Might have implanted on day 11, that's when the dip started. And I thought that meant my period was coming... teach me to believe a silly chart before my own body! First Response, by the way, is "top rated" by Consumer Reports. I think I'll cancel my subscription.

4/29/04 Dollar Tree, POSITIVE

Yes, really. There's a line. And it showed up within 3 minutes. Faint. Really faint. But a line. Here I was, by this point sort of resigned to negatives, sure my period would show up that day (14 days after ovulation), so I peed in the cup, started the test, and got in the shower. At about 2 minutes I got out, looked at it, blinked, rubbed my eyes, and got back in the shower. I got out a minute later, looked again, and sure enough, there was that line, still. Got back in the shower, finished up, got out about 10 minutes after the test was started, and stared at that faint line until my daughter started hollering at me that it was time to go to school. My first stop after going to her school was my husband's office, where I told him. Then I went back to the school to tell my daughter. And my friends online.

4/30/04 Dollar Tree HPT+, Dollar Tree OPK(faint), FRER (evaporation late line, very, very faint.)

I started to hate the First Response tests at this point. 2 negatives when I knew I was pg, after spending $18 on a pack of three tests. Note the faint line on the ovulation prediction test in the middle...darker actually than the positive HPT above it, but not "positive" for an OPK, which is only considered positive if the test line is actually as dark as or darker than the control line. You'll see that later. So the $1 tests were doing better than the $6 tests!

5/1/04 Dollar Tree HPT, positive

This line, still faint, has actual color and definition compared to earlier lines.

5/3/04 Dollar Tree, positive

You can see this one more easily. hCG doubles every 2-3 days. See the chart at the bottom for more on how this manifests on pregnancy tests.

5/4/04 Equate, FRER, Dollar Tree OPK (all positive)

In the morning, I took a First Response test and was happy to see, at last, a faint line, but annoyed at how faint it was. The OPK test was, I believe, taken at the same time. Reassuring with the other faint tests to see this one MUCH darker than it had been! Tired of seeing faint lines, I splurged and spent $7 on two tests from WalMart. In the afternoon I took one of the tests and was delighted to see a strong line (more easy to see in person) show up quickly. Yay! The morning urine was supposed to be "stronger" for a pg test, but apparently I got a really lousy batch of tests from First Response. Bad.

5/6/04, Equate, OPK

Note that the line on the equate is actually about twice as strong as the previous Equate test. Good news for testing 36 hours later! And the OPK is clearly positive.

5/10/04 Dollar Tree New Choice positive

Same style as the previous tests I took, yet the same urine produced MUCH stronger results on the "other" Dollar Tree test, below. But note how very much darker this was than the darkest previous of this brand. Encouraging!

5/10/04 "Other" Dollar Tree tests. 

Mine is positive, my kiddo's is negative. Good thing, too, since she hasn't gotten far enough into puberty to ovulate, let alone get pregnant! (Said she,"Ew! But Mooommmmm... I'd have to have SEX to get PREGNANT. EWWWWW!") Note the evaporation lines "near" the test area on hers. These showed up maybe 4 hours after the test was started. My result came up FAST. How fast?

This is from 5/13/04:

Each 2-second "stage" in the image represents about 10 seconds. The last two bits last longer because they took longer. Yes, the test line was coming up before the control line was finished! I did an OPK and HPT side by side. Here they are, without animation:








Note the top test, the ovulation predictor... the control line actually ends up lighter than the test line...

...by quite a lot!

Now THOSE are what I call positives. They're what I kind of expected to see at 14 days post ovulation (4 weeks pregnant.) But on 5/13/04, I am actually 6 weeks pregnant, 28 days after ovulation!

Here's a chart I designed that shows why it can take "so long" for a pregnancy test to get really dark.